sophisicatedbylove

2009-10-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS!! PLEASE2!! DO RELINK ME AT

www.hearts-z-ryn-hearts.onsugar.com

alrights!!

With Love,
ryn

2009-10-13T17:24:00.001+08:00

You may think that i dunt need you but actually i do..
Only that you dont understand me..
you just dont know how much i need you...
But you always misunderstood me..
But in actual fact i do love you baby...

2009-10-02T23:29:00.003+08:00

Happy 3rd Monthsary baby!!

Yea!! 3 month have past..Hopping to go further more in our relationship..hahah!! oh well!! so went out with my baby today!! wehee!! guess wat? it's like so random that we ate at SEOUL GARDEN! haha!! didnt expect it lah..so after all our 3rd month was at SG..while our 1st month was at Swensens!! haha..okay fine...

haha

so we ate at Marina..after our lunch we went to play bowling at Marina..wuhooo!! 2nd shoot strike lah sey!! haha..but still he wins!! damn!!

and after bowling we went to play HOUSE OF THE DEAD 3!! favourite lah sey! hehe..

he won again!!..

so after that decided to go for for shisha but ended up he cant go in coz he is not 18 yet! grrr!!ok fine..so change plan and we went to iluma to play arcade..it was like soo super duper fun!! we play to seater driver race..and it is 2D...i loike...so after that we went back to esplanade to chill out and lastly we went home//feelig so tired and shagged..grrr!

2009-10-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

Buhooo people!
sorry for not updating people!
im tired..tired of taking care of my niece! haha..tiring taw! haish
and i cant get enuf sleep somemore! what the hell...!
yea! tommorow going out with my Dear! wee! actually just bought a new Camera thats why soo excited! haha..Cant wait to take loads of pictures!! haha.and Happy 3rdmonthsary baby!! haha..didnt realise that we have been 3 months together!! haha..No more fights hor!! hahaha!!
-peace outs!-

2009-09-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

Farisya Syahira...Your'e just born today at 8.15am in the morning..Your'e just one lucky girl baby...I ♥ u...Oh well im your Auntie now...See the world and make your parent proud baby!! lastly ur Aunt loves you.....

2009-09-25T22:48:00.006+08:00

Hello people!! Buhooo!!

Okay..The 1st outing of raya with my friends was a blast!! haha!! i have fulfill my baby boy's dream!! ahahah..Going out wearing the same colour with his girlfriend..And i did fullfill his!! yea!!

Going out with my sisters were great..! But we did not finish the outing coz my sc have to go coz we have urgent matters!! so yeah! but we took alot of photos!! hell yeah!! my SC's are wearing red!! Jiwa kan? haha...

Power Rangers!! wuhooO!!Red warriors!! Z and Ayu

So between me and z,,alhamdullillah gettin better i guess..no fights,,,hehehe,,,better communications...hmmm,he's really changing and better can? haha..So super sweet and understanding! i loike!! hahaha! lolness!! *Credits for him*~~ooPpssss!!!!~~

Firdaus feat Fazreena and Idah feat Z(Z-ryn) *The Origanal Couple*

hahaha oh welll!! hehehe...

For you baby..we stay strong alright?? *Da mcm pengantin lah plak!* Lol!!

2009-09-23T23:23:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA SEMUA!!

Heylooo!! sorry for not updating quit alot of days!! coz im feeling *moodless* hahah!!

but tonight eventhough still no mood,but still i do blog..coz my blog going to be rusty soon!!

so yeah!!

so far raya is quit okay this year as i get to celebrate with m precious darling! Haziq Fauzi!! so tommorrow we going to wear RED!! Yessa!! haha...I miss my sisters! so meeting ayu and faz tommorow for raya!! yea!! i soo missing them so much sey!! haha...

And yesterday me and my baby love went to Watch movie,Bowling and Spending time together..As we did not meet so long coz im being too busy with my housework and my baby boy is bored coz he's gf is busy all these while..So spending time with him was great!! I love the day!!we had great time!! Weeee!!!

To make things clear to you!! you should know how much i love you!! And i really meant coz my heart states it all!!

2009-09-16T23:01:00.001+08:00

IM JUST BEING TOO SENSITIVE!! ARGH!!! WHAT WRONG WITH ME?!!!

2009-09-16T14:36:00.003+08:00

Hey guys!!

Today im soo bored!! argh!! Since im not schooling it is soo boring at home!! Oh boy!!

So bored nothing to do...Cant meet my boyfie as my mom is at home..Cant meet him until next week!! Wtf!! argh!!its okay i guess..have to be patient..Raya coming and im going to be busy starting tommorrow...oh boy!!...

Took random pictures today..nothing to ...and editting...And as usual stuck with my lappy nothing much i can do..having net is no point somtimes...kinda bored..how i wish i can go out..hais....

"She wants to be the best...She want to be the luckiest girl to have you in her life...Indeed she have it..She gets the guy that she wanted...Can she make him happy? she hope so..she's trying her best to win his heart again..."

Cinta - Melly Goeslaw feat Krisdayanti

"aku junjung pertuamu ...Cintai dia yg mencintai ku.."

2009-09-15T21:37:00.003+08:00

Every girl in this world wants a Prince Charming in their lives...Same goes to me...A girl that want happiness...she do have her happiness in her life..She wants a happy life to leave all her misery behind her..She found a prince in her life who is called haziq fauzi..He make her happy..she bring a smile on her face...Thinking that he's the one that manage to make her fall in love again...
Making her feel soo much love..But indeed its only for awhile...She's been cheated by the meaning of true love...
But giving the second chance for him to prove it again...Tears roll down my cheels but what i can say is HOPE...That's all....Love is BLIND...

p.s: Faiq you're right..sometimes i DONT DESERVE it...

To my love haziq fauzi,what i want now is happiness...Im heartbroken..Im being stabbed by you....You say you love me..Im giving the chance now baby...Lastly i love you too....

2009-09-15T21:26:00.002+08:00

Benarkah kau sEtia - OriginaL Rauzan - aLeM

pertama kali..
ku berjumpa dengan mu..
wajah mu hilang seperti bunga-bunga..
yang berterbangan di awan-awangan...
kau berkilau-kilauan..

Bulan namanya..ku bercinta dengan mu...
sikit pun tak ada prasan kasi dan sayang mu..
harap diri ku yang lama menunggu..
atas setia dari bibir mu...

oh..oh kekasihku...
bernakah kau setia...
atau pun kau berpura.....
sewaktu bersama ku...
wajah mu ku terbayang....
selalu di ingatkan...
walaupun berjauhan..
kau tetap ku sayangi...

Terima kasih...
ucapan pada mu...
kerana sanggup...
bercinta dengan ku...
tapi ku tahu...engkau dan aku..
tak akan..kekal selamanya....

p.s:Not being emo...But this song really makes me cry....

2009-09-13T19:31:00.001+08:00

Cari Jodoh.mp3 - Wali Band

p.s: Our favourite song!!

2009-09-13T19:04:00.003+08:00

Buhoooo!!

hmm...

it get so bored this few days as i was stuck at home doing nothing...!! grrr!!!...But i do have some housework to be done at home..which is im busy doing kuih raya...so yeah..My punishment for quitting my course..! oh well..my decision..So far..My parent dont allow me to step in school!! argh!! stress sia!! how to meet my boyfren? shit!! ass!!..

but the good thing my bonding with my parent are good..we had a good time today...so yeah..thank godness..haish..

So my baby is back today after his bbq with sc boys..so yeah..really miss him though...what can i do? haish...wait till i have the time for him ah..coz now i must be quaratine at home..after raya maybe i can spend my time with so my friends..haish..about my blaze 1 camp,im not so sure....coz im no longer student in ITE COLLEGE EAST..

so saddening...we will see...

So far what i have learnt that this year's ramadhan is quite a special one coz i learn alot of lesson..hmmm..and having a great boyfriend with me..even i drop my course,eventhough i hurt my love ones feelings,but still they do forgive me...

Hoping this year syawal will be the best syawal...

Alhamdullillah the problem between me and z is getting better..we planned not to have fight again...insyaallah everything will be fine...praying hard that we will last long...

2009-09-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

Buhoooo!!!
Hey people!! Its going to be a shocking news!! I have ATTRITED my course...I quite SHOCKING i know..ahaha...I know i have only 6 more months to graduation..But what can i do? i cant force my self to lie it..Im with my decision...My parent cant take it..I understand that!! So yeah..I dont blame them..Only thing is that i want them to understand me thats all..Alhamdullillah my mom agrees and take it with her open heart..As for me,i have promise that i will not lie to her..Indeed...I will not..I will not keep secret will definately tell her the truth of what happening around me..My dad have lost hope on me..But i dont blame him either,he is really dissapointed in me...Haish..I hope one day he will forgive me would realise that he still do have a daughter in the house....

Currently alot of things have changed now...I hope so..About Z-RYN(Idah and Z)...
We are on a hard rock yesterday..We were about to break up..Due to some reasons that only both of us knew..Im not a perfect girl..I can be hush...I can be hot tempered..You want to changed from the "minah" attitude to a decent girl..You still want me to be who i am...As long i dont have that attitude of mine..We realise that we dont do much for each other...
Whatever the reasons i have is to be strong...After sorting things out and talking to each other,we realise that we really miss those time that we have for each other before we in the relationship...I agree on that..but alhamdullilah we changing for a brighter..We promised that we dont want to have any fights and no secrets..We learn that we have to understand each other..thank god,"HE" give us a chance to prove what is right and what is wrong...

P.s:You know it dear that my heart is bleeding..And it really needs time to heal..i hope that you can gain back and make me trust your love again..Im willing to give you the chance to prove it again dear.....

2009-09-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!!

Hey people! actually im starting School already so yeah!! BUT!!! im quitting my course soon enough!! Because of certain reasons!! Hahaha..So yeah!!

Well Enough abiut schooling but today was like soo much fun can??
Well my and my dearest guy,we did not went to school coz we "cabot"..hahaha!! Naughty right? i know hahah..So yeah...

So after we meet at 9.30 am at simei MRT we have no plans..but before that we do talk about some personal stuffs to settle ah...so yeah..after that we headed to Bedok to buy some clothes so that we cpuld change ..Actually im supposed to be the one to change,but indeed he bought a pink and black long sleeve...It do look nice on him..Oh well..!! haha...he likes pink and black now..haha..and evryone knows that i love pink..but SORRY guys!! i did not psycho him hor!!! LOL...

So we really had a GREAT day!!

And love him...!! weheee!!1

2009-09-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

Hello readers!!!
Sorry to say that i did not update my bloggy for really2long time..due to some reasons as now i just get my net..And i could use my bloggy as per normal already...i will try to update more things everyday...So yeah..But not only that i was just being discharged from the hospital due to Appendix on inx...So hopping nothing wrong with me ....i really dont want to trouble my parent that much..im plannig to quit nursing but i dont think that my parent would agree with my decision of quitting the course..but we will see what happen...but if i do to drop off from the course,i still do want to study hard..but the course that i wanted soo much is office..and when i finish i would want to study in Poly...that's my dream..and work hard to earn better money..But people do say that nursing is a better job in the future..Yes it is..But it needs alot of patient,and need alot of hardwork...what i will do i will just see what happen in these few days...i cant wait to go to school but indeed i cant coz u misses my friends soo much!! i miss my bestie! who is Auni,Rad and Nazreen Shah..i do miss my frens..But most of all i miss Nazreen!! not because he is my ex boyfie..He is my best friends that would always there beside me in class..He is the one that always going to be my partner..My locker partner...My ex chairman...A shoulder to cry on...He is my most understanding friend after all...Nothing much..Coz he never ever wants to see his bestfriend to have a tear in her eye...He is also the one that comfort me when i fight with my ex boyfie Faiq Amsyar..But now uts in the past...Overall i miss my buddy...
Oh well wednesday im back to school instead of monday..What can i do? im still on leave....*sobs*

And my to my boyfie,Haziq Fauzie...Dont be jealous hor!! eventhough i say i miss my best fren Nazreen,means i have changed my heart...No...i guess you know the answer already dear..The trust is important..Like i say,i mau say i miss them doesnt mean i love them...Its just that they do play a part in my heart..but you should know that you still special to me...*smiles*

But now most importantly,im missing my GIRLS!! who is Ayu and fazreena!! My two very beloved sisters!! the one that knows me well enough!! hehe..where are you girls??! do text or call alright!!

2009-08-29T18:58:00.002+08:00

buhooo!!
hey guys!! its nearly 2 months me and z being together...So yeah..after the incident ysterday after talking with my father in law,(Mustapha)..LOL...He is right..Me and Z we have to talk more..we need to..we can fade if we did not talk much or being open to each other..We should not be keeping secrets o each other..As it will really affect the r'ship..Gods will,During hari raya we are celebrating together!! wehee!! so yeah!!....
And it going to be 3rd month when hari raya comes!! haha..really appriciare it loads!!...

P.s:im missing you dear..LOOking forward for this tuesday on our 2nd month..LOL..

2009-08-25T09:07:00.002+08:00

Buhoo! hey guys!! now me updating my blog in SC room..LOLness!!
so yeah! currently my relationship with him,,is on a rough patch...seriously..but what can i do??
it just happens...But what we can say now that we are trying not to put on our anger for no reasons..
so yeah..
things get cocky this month...its fasting month i know and we have a lot of challenges happening to us..so yeah..what can i say..we must learn to be patience...
im trying my best to control coz i have alot of things that happening around me and in my mind..oh boy!! im getting sick and tired of working..but i have no choice just to earn money..So what can i do??
im have to qit Fila Soon..Due to my parents..i really cant take it anymore..i feel like i wanna cry but i just cant cry..seriously in shit..
im trying to to be patient..!! oh god! please help me!!!

2009-08-18T22:35:00.005+08:00

"Wanting to have a permanant smile on my face forever!!"

Life will change..People makes mistakes...So do i....Not all is perfect in this world..

It starts a new fresh for me and Z...Everything changed at 12 midnight last night..we promise something that we want to improve in life to make my life makes better..We try hard to changed...From a wild loud girl to a sweet 18 girl who learn how to be polite to others,..From an inmature thinking guy to a mature 17 year old guy that knows what is right and what is wrong...

Going to the right path is our choice tp succeed and to have better career for us and for our family in the future ahead..Hopping that we are meant together in years ahead.....

"Praying hard for us to be together forever!!"

P.S: I never neglect you..Im always loving you Haziq Fauzie..Im Sorry if i do hurt you....

2009-08-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

Buhooo people! oh well update about yesterday..

we have a lot of fun!! haha..so yeah..really do! we are planning again to goi sentosa on our 4th Monthsary huh..LOL...

big plans ahead...But 1st we need to save up money so that we really can have fun on that day..haha..oh well..

Hmmm...

we have a nice day yesterday..swimming for hours..Luckily its not sunny if not,i going to get DARKER!! LOL...so yeah..haha..

will NOT upload the photos coz i look FAT! argh

but he is not coz that guy has 6 pack while for me argh! BONCET!

2009-08-13T23:00:00.003+08:00

One person to think,One person to miss....Haziq Fauzi..Thats the name that i will always miss..

2009-08-12T21:25:00.002+08:00

Hey My lovers!!
Oh well..internet is still NOT back yet...argh!!
Damn fcking stress..with money!! Much more stress!! need to work hard..but indeed this sat im taking MC! coz i wanna go on a DATE again!! BUT!! with no MONEY! wtf!! haha..oh man!!haiyah!

So....currently about me and my baby boy was great..LEss FIGHTS! actually we didnt really fight..we never fight as hard before..! haha..Coz thank god we understands each other...Well baby,i must admit that you are not the same as the other guys thats ive seen dear!! yeah!! haha...Oh well...!
u have a great heart that is very sincere to a girl that you truly LOVEs!!
Im lucky to be yours!!..
And im touched by you as u really want that fcuking past of mine to be ~~strike~~ off in my dictionary!!..Thank you baby!!
3 werds for you..I ♥& YOU! hehe..

2009-08-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!
Hey guys! sorry for not updating that much..Oh well my internet is still not back yet...So yeah! how saddening!....Grr...!!
Well days are getting better i guess...? haha..Tired with working and suffs like that...So yeah! About me and Z...Oh well like i say 1st mothsary was a big blast for me..!!

it gone great...!
and before that,My dearie Boyfie is turing 17!! yeah3...!! Happy birthday baby!!Im just loving you..*Blush*Awww!! Super sweet can?!

2009-08-06T20:24:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!!
Heyloo people!!
Actually when i reach work today i ws totally fcuking sick..and i have to go home..But indeed i went Tamp poly to get my mc..oh well! haha..cool can? haha..
adn i get 2 days mc..yeehaa!
so gonna rest well..haha..i guess...
so today went to skewl but was really bored as not many people are in SC so meet up with faiq Amsyar at Century Square to give him the file..so yeah..Plannin to mit abbas but his werking and gonna be late..So it gonna be a rush! LOL...
So planning cancelled...So as usual me and Z window shoppinG!
wehee@

So after that headed back to skewl as he have soccer training..Plannin to watch their training but indeed my manager called up to asl me to come down..So i came down..Have a change of rooster..And i have to come back werk at Harbourfront as i have an event ! argh! so sun gonna be a full shift at tamp 1...LOL..haha..And monday is PH...And going out with Z!..
hmm...Where? Shisha?? oh well not sure! see how it goess! goes somebody has 100 buckz!
While i only have 50 buckz! grr!..

Ohwell!,,btw,got a hair cut and eyebrow shaping..LOL...Zul Seems like it! dasar nyer manager!..haha...So yeah!!

And btw baby,i guess your bdae present u get late!! i spend my money on makeups! woops!!

2009-08-05T20:04:00.003+08:00

He's the Mr Pimp in my life..!

Buhooo!! People!!

Oh well..Sorry for not updating people...So yeah..my one month monthsary with Z have gone well and great i guess..so yeah...On 1st August is the best day ever as we celebrate our 1 month with our love ones..So yeah..went out with my beloved brother Ace and beloved siz Ayu...haha...So 1st up met ace at tamp 1 and he told me he wanna buy something for ayu,so i say might as well by a smart dress for her..so he agreed when to the shop Bustop and he bought a blue dress for her..but i get jealous coz my bro didnt buy for me..sobs..sobs...LOL..but he did bought me a pink one..we hee..!! i love you brother!! haha so yeah!! haha..so me and ayu had the same dress onie our fav colours..haha...so he says he want to buy for Z oso...so headed to Recoil and i told hym that Z love this pink smart shirt..but he was so shocked as since when Z loves Pink!! haha...he wanna faint! haha..oh well bt he did buy it for Z..fuh!! and before that i bought Z 2 ties...it Pink and Green+Black...He seems like it..even was jealous of it..Sorry brother!!! hehe...So we went to Swensens at Airport!! And Ace treat us!! thank you!! i appriciate it loads!!
Before we changed After we changed
And the 2 girls with my brother!!

Oh well after eating swensens we went to Bugis to shop again..now its ace turn to shop for himself...After that he have to go off and me,ayu and Z we went to Haji lane for Shisha..LOL...
its not that strong..its strawberry.and i hate the taste gah!! i end having headaches!! haha..
so at 7 plus we went off to coffee bean at bugis and meet syuk..after that me and Z headed to esplanade to chill and spend the night together...!! oh well!!it shud be the best date ever!!! and a great one!!! thank you dear...!! alot to be updated after i get my internet back!! see ya!!

p.s:Just keep tagging!! and i wil reply aite!! miss you guys!! Muackz!!

2009-07-29T21:17:00.003+08:00

"she turns out to be RYN"

Buhoo people!! wuhoo!!

Actually my internet is not back yet..Its onli that im using "stolen"wireless!!

haha..so briefly update about whats happening aite??

so yeah..

Currently im starting to give up my course..Oh well!! what can i do right??

haish..Im just scared that i cant edure with the pressure i have.Haish...what can i say..its endurance...

So,going to attachment at IMH next week..Grr..Freaking sick im gonna be!! argh!!...

ok fine..

"Z-RYN"

So counting on the days to our 1 monthsary..Hahah..LOL..should be a blast date with my love ones..haha..watching the fire works again i guess!! LOL..great huh...haha..so yeah..

And now im missing the ones that i love soo much!!!

2009-07-28T16:53:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!!
Hey guys updating my blog using my baby's lappy..LOL(credits for him)...
Oh well,now in Activity Room updating my bloggy,,,Well i miss my Sc mates that much.,..haha..My internet @ home is down...So yeah...very irritating...Must wait till next 2 weeks i guess..Hahaha...
I've been skipping attachments these few days..Coz im like soo sick and lazy with attachment as it is not my passion anyway...I really feeling like giving up..Coz i really cant take it lying to my self in doing the work..But i just cant explain that to my parents..they would not understand me in other ways...So i really have to bear with it..."suffering"..what i can say is only i have to Stay...!!!

Well between me and Z,i guess not much trouble happening to us..We doing well i guess...I hope so..And i can see that..Looking forward for this Saturday..Its would be a shopping day for me!! Weheee!! i loike...~~ ...LOL...haha..yessa!!!

I really want that fcuking dresses!! LOL...

oh well..Gtg...it almost 5pm..And im still on hys lappy...hehe...GTG!! just keep on tagging people!! Love you pple!!

p.s:I miss you soo much bella swithart!!!!

2009-07-24T20:48:00.003+08:00

Hey guys!!

Sorry people..Currently my laptop has no internet..Im under maintanence..so yeah..! cant really update...to cut it short and sweet...

Im bz with attachment,work,CCA,friends and relationships..so yeah..

haha

so about my attachment,im doing fine i guess..but having 4 mc's...lol..

due to LAZYNESS!!

haha

oh well

werking at fila is great..! have good collegues! and the best in-charges!! wuhoo!!

abiut my CCA,balancing well i guess..!! haha..hoping doing fine!!

i miss my SC's...

Between me and haziq..we going well and smoothly no problems..But he's beung sick always..so i have to take care of my "family"..oh well..

i love him..

1 monthsary is coming up!! cant wait for the remarkable Double date at Swensens!! thank ace!! i love you soo much brother!!! yea! ohwell!!

Hoping to last long forever!

2009-07-15T21:32:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!! today is abit different day as i did not meet hym..Like for the 1st time in weekdays..LOL..
So well i hate my morning shift done and at 3pm i get myself changed and i went to Tamp Fila to meet Zul!! wuhoo! haha..Ohwell..
lepak for awhile and and i was introduced to a new part timer..so yeah..

He told me to go off as the BIG boss is coming so yeah..I have to go..So bored and i called ayu infront of this Shop"Bus stop"..planning to meet her but indeed when call her up she ans and she say she is in the shop..and we went out and shouted like hell coz we misses each other soo much!! preety weird i noe but we dunt care and we hug soo tightly like no body buiness..as for sure,i miss her soo much..cant deny that..LOL..we just love each other soo much...Really i do....
I love her and i miss her!!....
and what i can say that she bought me a shorts..we bought the same shorts so yeah!! haha..so super sweet can?? haha...Thank you dear....I love you can?/haha

2009-07-14T22:31:00.003+08:00

Guys!! Sooo Sorry!! Due to Some technical problem..!! Please Leave your link on my TAGBOARD!! And i will RELINK...!!

Buhoo!!

Well today was very tiring at work!! Grrr!! WTF!! ahah...Oh well!!

After school headed to school to meet my Sc members as usual..But im Sick!! And everyone says ,i have Swine Flu.,WTF! haha..buts its okey!! haha..

But im not..!!

So meet Z at School and we headed to eat at simei..and headed hom!! noting much..! too tired to update!!

haha..And lastly i love Hym!!

"He is the one that stole my heart again...And bring me to reality and to be loved again!!"

Amin style:"awww...sssoooo ssssweeettt!!"

2009-07-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

Booo!!
Hey guys!! well its been some days didnt update,due to working...Well its tiring as im not having any rest at all..But its fun!! I love working at Fila..I just love it!! Didnt regret of joining it..Like what Zul(My Boss) told me.hahahaha..Oh well...Haha...Okey had great fun working at Temporary at IMM..so yeah...Great Collegue...can get well enough..Easy job..Its better though..Handling with customers...And im good at promoting...haha..*credits to me*..
haha...good work for me haha..i loike...haha...Cool can?
tomorrow back at CGH as a Nurse...And next Sunday being posted to Vivo City due to shortness of staff...so yeah..hoping to get better collegue...hmm..
So far so good..Im happy and earning better i guess...
Had a straightening hair done..hahah..so happy can? lol...
cant wait to reborn haha...hope so..and i will...haha...

2009-07-09T20:27:00.003+08:00

Booo!! Its been long time i did not update!!..

Coz im busy with attachment..so yeah,to cut it short,i want to to tell you guys that im doing the best for my attachment!!..coz...i want to pass my this module..so that i would be having a better GPA..yes ah!!...

so cant wait to start working at Fila wuhoo!! Oh well...

haha..Starting this sat at IMM...

haha...

so after attachment i meet my both sweethearts...Bella and Z...so headed to Sch so bella have her dance..Z will usually with Sc...So at the entrance,i met Syuk!! Aku rindukan kau!! Okey random aku tau haha..

so lepas with him in sch while he waiting for michelle..so when she reached,she told me she retain nursing to April intake..i was so shocked like hell..Kiwek!!

But,!! she's in my Group!!! Yes ah!! we were like jumping like hell sia!! OMG! haha..so excited to work with her...haha..Gerek lah sey!!...

So meet Z in sc and he have forgotten that he is working..OH well..standard,laki aku mmg...

haah

So went widow shopping again..haha.and he was late again so he headed to mrt while i headed to Tamp 1 to meet my Lovely boss Mr Zul LOL...get my orientation done so good..And as workers i get to try alot of clothes..wuhooo!! soo happy ca?? and Zul love it.!! suka manager aku!! hahaha.,

cant wait to work at TAmp ! but im being posted to IMM for the time being..so yeah...sedih..

get some shots..!! and im dying to buy one day!!!

2009-07-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

I know that i have hurt you just now..I really damn freaking sorry...
Its not my intention..but im just too hurt by myself..Its not i dunt trust or believe you..Im always hearing the same things over and over again,,,I just couldnt help it...you want to prove that you are way better than faiq..Go on..Prove it to me..im willing to see...Make me trust you again....
I dunt want to get hurt anymore..Enough of hurtings...I just want to have happiness with you..
Thats all i want..i want to believe your words..So let me trust you more and more day by day..I love you..And i do trust you...Remember...I trust you!! And i love you....

2009-07-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!!
Well today was amazing!! yeay!! oh well...went out with Z today..Its Our date!! at last! chey!! haha..its like our 1st date after we get together ah so called...Meet him at Bugis..Had our lunch..after that we headed to Marina Barrage..Just to chill out and took alot of pictures..so yeah..!! I guess it was the best date ever..After that we headed to City Hall to window shopping..Decided to drop by At Funan to see if Ace is working..yea he did..told his collegue what time he's working and indeed its at 5pm..so we slack around at Penin just to window again..LOL...
At again..we eye-ing alot of stuffs..i decided to buy the skinny jean at Penin..Coz its only 15...So yeah..as planned,me and Z..after our pay..LOL.hahaha..
So at 4 plus Ace called up and say that he meeting us in the middle of level 1...

So meet him at level 1..And gues what he hug us!! so tightly!!"I miss my rascals!!!"..I miss him too!!..feel like crying but cant..haish...at last get to see my brother...yea!! goodness!!
i miss him can?
so we talked for awhile and we plan what we wanna do together..so 3 of us gonna reborn AGAIN!! yess ah!! Jiwa RASCALS lah sey!!
so planning to buy the necklace i guess so..LOL...but its like so damn cool can??
oh well,tired already...
just wanna have my rest,and tommorow is attchment!! WTH!
kiwek!!!
Grr...! sorry to say this but i hate my attachment!! Wtf!!
Hoping time flies very fast so i can graduate!! and get my Office!!Grr!! Damn ass hole...Gah!!

Ok...Missing him now..LOL..btw today was like so sweet can? Nobody of my ex have done what you have done for me..So sweet of you..You know i know dear....hehe

2009-07-04T22:09:00.005+08:00

Buhooooo!!
Oh well now i feel sooo tired as its been two days in a row i went out with my live ones...Chey...Oh well yesterday went out with my Sc mates,we went bowling!! wuhoooo!! its like so fun can?? haha..LOL...
we played at marina square!! haha..
its was super duper fun seh!! oh well...
haha...
its like a bet la sey..If i dunt hit the pins i Z will break up with me..LOL..and indeed in ended masuk longkang lah sei!! kiwek!! hahaha..
And the line from him,"Thats it!! i break up with you!!!"..
And I can rememeber Ghazali's face was like"Really ah, u guys break...??"
and i give the nod that we break up..haha..
and its Z's turn...If he manage to have a spare,we will patch up..haha..and he gets a spare..and we patch up...!! haha..i noe its no LINK!! haha...
but i have fun...!!

after that headed to the arcade..And we the 6 sc who loves racing so much!! we race and i get 4th!! yessa!! oh well i manage to overtake Z at the last 5 seconds!! wuhooo!! mengamuk nampak org tu!! lol...

ok den,we saw hazmi and awis dancing para2...walauey!! its like so pro OMG!! haha...i loike...!! its super duper funny can?? haha...

And indeed after that we headed to BUGIS..walking..OMG...me and Z we were so broke..haha..
so we didnt eat and we just hangout at bugis junction while the rest having their dinner...hahah..
so hanging around the fountain..and took pictures..its started when i ask haja to take my picture with Z but indeed the rest like so sebok can?? kacau daun ah!!
haha
but the sweetest picture was Wan and Halijah!! haha..he gonna kill me if i say this,,haha...
so i was so super tired and i wanna go home as the next day was another day of me going to SKATE..

Ok...
Today was so fun also..I cant believe that i dress like a skater girl lah sey!! haha..for the 1st time i wear a proper shoe which was a NIKE shoe bought by my beloved abg sedara from Australia..And i was wearing a polo-t NIKE..LOL...and my beg!! wee!! its like both of us was like a Skater Couple?? LOL..haha...
reached somerset and meet my adq ayu..Planning to meet alep but indeed he did not turn up..haish!! thank eh!! you plan and u did not turn up..haiz..its okey..lucky me and Z are forgiven people,if not i gonna drag to the mrt track sia...Nah just kidding! Menanges tak berlagu adq aku nanti kalo alep mati..haha...
I never skate at somerset coz im not so pro..lol..
haha..
oh well..
and we ate at Mac at centrepoint and after that headed to bugis to send Ayu to work..
and we walked around bugis again..
haha
and im eye-ing on this Skinny Jean which black in color..Its like so super nice can??
its like soo nice after i tried it on..hah..and Z i guess you like it after i try it on right? its like 25 bucks..and i gonna get it soon after i get the pay...
hmm..
we going shopping!! yea!! im dying to buy alot of stuffs..haha!!And i will wear like how the manakin is wearing..wow!! with my jackett!! its like super nice can?? haha..YOU know i know Z...haha...

So its was like 5 plus and we skate near Bras Basah there...and i FINALLY can skate properly..oh well see lah who is the coach...?? its Z like duh my boy! haha...i manage to Skate!! ATLAST!! but need more practice...So Z get my deck puhlease!! so i can practice can??...

Oh well i manage to skate and he teach me how to olie...Hmmm but dear...im still new lah sei..but at least i try..it needs more practice...hmm...
so headed back to tamp as both of us are super tired after skating around..
Need good rest as tommorow is another special day for us...LOL..hahaha..An outing again..Only the 2 of us..Spending our last time together before his school starts...And my attachment starts!! oh gosh..And he going to have alot of drama classes and for me working at Jurong IMM..haish..so far and at lucky its in the weekends...And not forgetting he is working to at Sakura at Jurong Point..haish..Soo little time...but its good...So little time....More Missing than fighting...(hmm...mcm knl ajer..lol...)

P.s:Pictures cannot be uploaded as due to some maintanence...haish...rabak per!!

2009-07-02T19:01:00.002+08:00

buhoooo!!
ok now what?
today nothing intresting at all...just updating about what happening today...
ok 1st off,last night talked with Z until 2 am in the morning and i have to wake him up at 6 am in the morning..WTH..coz he meeting me lol...haha...
oh well...
we play typing maniac at facebook..like soo fun can?
haha
so went down to meet mummy for lunch..and i went to skate...! like soo fun! oh well!!
i miss rascals!!! damn!1 kiwek!! miss the fun time together! ACE!! mane kau??!
aduh!

ok nvm meeting him this sat..yes ah! rascals per!! haha..
i just love my life now..and guess what??
im having attachment and i get the job at fila!! yes ah! i love the job but i hate attachment can??

i feel giving up...
no offence but still i cant take it any longer in nursingl...peer pressure!! gah!!!...
damn!!
lucky last year! sial ah can die sia!!!

ok i dunt wanna talk about it...
hmm...it seems somebody getting popular after being attach huh?
Mintak num lah sey..oh well haha.....

2009-07-01T17:48:00.002+08:00

Oh well!!

As some have been waiting for it to update...Oh well...!! Its 1st July 2009...!!
Well as for sure...Its officially attached...oh well...ok.. We are attached At 12.00midnight..okey..as planned...everything goes smoothly...hehe...
Okey...Now...Im officially Haziq Fauzi's Girlfriend...Alright??

The picture could not be post i dont know why..but its okey...
So now being attached i have a big responsibility...He changed me and he want me to change him also...oh well okey then..
Im trying okey..i dont promise you..i try what i can do for you alright?

Changing is easy but adapting to the changes is hard...We have to adapt it slowly..well now in r'ship we have gone far i guess..Fights!! we gone tru that already...!! thank god..well as u should remember that i have been tolerating your behavior..im giving you the last chance..if u break my last chance,im soo sorry.....i know it sounded soo hush....But im sorry im just being like faiq now..like how he did to me last time...giving me only the last chance to survive..I know that you way too different from faiq..you are mature thinking....
eventhough you are just 17....I respect that...your way of thinking is way more better than him..that is why i respect you the most...

But at least i do confess to you about my feelings last time towards ace...and you accept it..thank you..i know its hurting..But i just have to tell you early before we go far...But indeed you accept it with your whole heart and you still wanting me to be your girl...
I know that you want me to guide you in this relationship..i do..i will but not much...I lead the r'ship with faiq..But it crashes down the drain...I've being accused of controlling...I dont control you...i know you would ask about my opinion in what you gonna do...i appriciate alot..But i bet some of the things you could think on your own right...do your own decision can?? if it consist of me..i will give you the answers..

Well,being a skater girl not easy...It is like way two different world...Im entering a nother world that i would not realised that i would be doing...
I love myself and what im doing now...Even people hate skaters im so sorry just accept the people of who she is..not what she doing...
Well im happy with what i am right now...Positive thinking and a positive thinking...Being patient withe the things happening around me...I love my girlfriends..and i love him also...And i do love my family..They are the most priority in my life.....

Life is changing!! I REGRET KNOWING YOU!! My LIFE WOULD NOT BE SUX LIKE THIS!!
BUT!
I HAVE A BETTER LIFE NOW...THANK GODNESS.....LET IT BE...!! ENOUGH OF SUFFERING LAST TIME WITH YA!!!

2009-06-30T21:42:00.002+08:00

Buhoooo!!
Hey guys!! well today was a great day i guess...coz...i sent hym to work at sakura..wuhooo!! lol..
woke up at 730..get freshen up..but still sleepy coz i slept at 4 am in the moring coz we talk for like 4 hours!! OMG!!..damn!!
so went out at 830...and reached boon lay at 10am...
so meet hym ...hangout at library..and at 11 plus i send hym work...lol..
the manager kanasai sia!! damn Chee bye!! lol..he shame me sia!!! OMG!
thanx eh Z...u tell ur manager...! walauey!! so shame sia! damn!! thanx eh!! kiwek!!..

Ok nvm..board the train and went to meet my sis ayu at Cofee bean at tamp..and it almost 2pm..and i have the presentation!! damn!! so nervous!! but thank god,i make it through!! alhamdulillah...
hopping to get the job!!!
really hopping so seh!!
well meet my mom at bedok interchange..had my lunch,and then we walk around bedok and went to my dad's workplace...
fun..!! outgoing..!
i love my family now!! it makes me feel like sooo happy can?? haha...
so thats my day!!

p.s...The clock is ticking,,,the ans will be reveal in a few hours time...11.59...the ans revealed!!

2009-06-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

Buhoooo!!

well peepz!! i was feeling soo happy and hyper!! lol..just dont know why..lol..

Okey..it seems thats somebody's lappy get confisicated....*sad face*...well but its okey...i will still update my bloggy..u still gan read right?? lol..hehe...well today is Z's first working day at Sakura at Jurong Point..LOl...well best of luck dear!!!...hmmm...1 more day to go for my answer to be revealed to him....

well meet him at guardian mrt station at 12 noon..well i headed to CGH to get my duty rooster for one month..so meet Bella sweetheart at Simei with Fareez..so yeah..and Awis and Wan Pnc tag along..it was like soo damn kecoh can? *Perangai Ayu sia*...And guess what Both Awis and Bella wearing green!! soo...As usual Mr Z will get soo jealous!! hahaha...Its green!!..so had our Lunch at LJS...And it almost 3 pm..And Send Z to Tamp Mrt Station and Me,Bella,Awis and Wan went to Ehub as the others Sc members went to watch Transformers...So yeah...

And i wanna watch it again! well reach Cathay and guess what? All future couples were there..Wan meet Mastura..Yat and Kak Farah,Wan P with halijah..hmm...but so sad as wan Pnc cant make tru as so sad of mastura..awww....pity them...So meet joyce sweetheart!! OMG! so miss her that much...lol..and meet hykel too my lil brother..miss hym oso..he was like sooo damn cute can? haha..

And bella,awis and wan went bowling..Me and Joyce just tag along..they were like soo fun!! planning to play but i have no time so yeah..Maybe this friday maybe?? haha...

well tommorow is like my presentation!! OMg! im soo scared seh!! i hopping to get the job dearly...aiyooo...!!

2009-06-28T22:24:00.003+08:00

Buhoooo!!

well today is like so sunday!! haha..well no link i noe..kies...well aite..

well i woke up at 113o in the morning i was like sooo tired that makes me sleep late lol..

ok nvm so woke up get my self freshen up and called him..so yeah..haha.k nvm no link..

alright watch Confession of a teenage drama queen..and after that headed to meet mummy at her werkplace..and after that headed to Bedok to have our lunch..so yeah..i took candid shots of my parent..lol..

haha..well good family luch i guess..no fighting...only talking about my career in the future..lol...

ok next..planning to go to changi beach but it was like soo full so we decided to head back home...on my lappy and yea he's still waiting for me...awww sooo sweet baby..hahaha...

so cleaning my room and shifting the things in my room...so yeah..tooo much werk ...actually i cleaning my room again is just to gain credits so that i can go out lol..haha..so well its late..thats all i gonna post!! see ya!!

p.s I promise you mom and dad...i would not dissapoint you again..i give you shame! i promose i would not do it again..this i promise..i just to wanna see mum cry for me again...so please..i will finish it and u gonna allow me to fulfill my dream..thanx...i will do this the last semester for u guys...no more...i dont have no one else..onie them...love mom and dad...eventhough om ur adopted child...but still im lucky...i should be grateful for it...

2009-06-27T23:24:00.007+08:00

p.s:Wearing a long skirt is like so not like me

Buhooo!!

well guys!! abit late of updating blog coz i was actually quite free but i have my lazy sickness in blogging...hehe...well currently now im waiting for the reply fro Z as he called me but i did not answer as he i was talking to ayu on the phone...well currently missing her...well i guess im getting busy soon enough..i bet both of us are bz..me with attachment..while Z with school and work...

So yeah..and my lil sis...study hard dear..no more failings alright?? I love you darling..hmmm well so far soo good nowadays,,,i hope things getting better when the days comes..well day by day treasuring the people around me..my galfriends..Ayu,Bella,Faz...and the others..and i love my rascals..which is Ace...I love him too and i miss him..LOLness!! i miss our crazy moments..."oh well"...haha...yea3..

haha..do contact me lah brother!!! hahah..

Ok that is random..haha...well between me and Z hopping to better day by day...haha...you miss me huh?? buhooo haha.lolness....

today was not that much as when for interview..and i was hopping to get the job!! Grrr!! im dying to have that job...it was like soo easy can?(Perangai ayu sia!!!!!!)

haha..

well went home and guess what?? i study bio...OMG! unbelievable i noe..haha...well nothing much to update...!! bye...!!

10 roses ...its the sweetest thing ever my dear....!!!!!!

2009-06-26T13:05:00.002+08:00

Buhoo!!
well here i am updating at coffee bean...
planning to re create my blogshop with Z..but indeed he back up...yes! lazy!!
i hate lazy bumps!!!.....
well he use to be excited last night..i took my effort in decorating the blog nicely for him as he ask me to do sooo....!!!
Im sick lastnight but still i took the energy and effort for the blog as u want it to be intresting and nice..i did it for you...But now here,in front of me,you saying that you decided not to do ut..ok fine!! and again...All hard work i done for you is gone again...DOWN THE DRAIN!!!!!!!.....
again crashed to ass pieces...enough is enough..you promise me ..and now you break it again....
what is this...????!!!!!....

it takes much effort for me to do the blog nicely for you by me "sneaking" my laptop out for you so that i can show you the hard work...well...
thank you very much for the EFFORT you make for me.....
and well u give me a smile that stays only for half and hour...and right now in the coffee bean.....it down again...all efforts are gone....

P.s: Thank you for the 10 roses..appriciate that alot....If i know,i would not wear my skirt today...

2009-06-25T16:34:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!!!

Well people...yesterday went out to watch transformers.well at first i said that it was booring to watch..but indeed it turn out to be fun!! wuhoo!! you were right baby!!! haha...well have to trust u more i guess..lol...hahah..
well after the show went out with them...so to cut it short,he nearly faint again!! grrr!
i got mad! argh!! soo stubborn leh! aiyoo...!

but baby.i get clear to u ready last night..its up to you to decide!!!

2009-06-23T18:56:00.003+08:00

Buhoo..

well people..im back to where i belong here...thats mean that i hav my life back..which means that me n my bella swithart are having a bette life right now,,,yea3.....lol..its random i noe..haha...well between me and Z we are better now..hope so..its part and parcel of life...well we are happy now...

hoping that we will have better life ahead..yea!!

Tommorow is gonna watch Transformers...Well not my type but Z told me that i gonna love watching it...so yea..hope so..try making me happy huh..haha..meeting bella swithart tmr...quit sad that both loverbirds are not with me and Z..haish..sad leh..Nvm...some other times aite?

Sorry sweetheart i took your pic..hehe...i just wanna u guys last long...*muacks*Stop being bollywood huh...LOL

For us..Its seen we have gone far enough huh..we trying to be strong aite??Wishing for 4 of us to be strong in our relationship in loving each other....

2009-06-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

Can i just broke down to tears?? can i??
i cant hold my tears...i just feel like crying..Its really hurt me deeply..my heart is being stabbed AGAIN!...
not once,twice but thrice!!
i dunt noe wat's going on..its just HURT....

2009-06-22T20:11:00.002+08:00

"Kesetiaan menghalangi
Kupindah ke lain hati
Dan tak ingin ku melukai

Mendambakan cinta ini
Hanya kekalnya denganmu
Tapi kudrat tak di tanganku

Padamu kualunkan rinduku
Sayang jadi sendu
Tinggalkan lara putus cintaku

Di akhir kali pertemuan pilu
Tahu kau meninggalkanku
Kau palitkan kesal menunggumu

Kesalahan kau pautkan di jiwaku
Kau nampakkan keangkuhanmu
Kurelai cinta tak suci ini pergi

Kuhayunkan langkah kaki
Meraih cinta yang suci
Moga ada insan yang luhur... sehati

( solo )

Segaris nada rindu
Hilang jadi sendu
Tinggalkan lara putus cintaku

Di akhir kali pertemuan pilu
Tahu kau meninggalkanku
Kau palitkan kesal menunggumu

Kesalahan kau pautkan di jiwaku
Kau nampakkan keangkuhanmu
Diri ini tak kau hargai

Kesalahan kau pautkan di jiwaku
Kau nampakkan keangkuhanmu
Kuredhai cinta tak suci ini pergi... jauh
Cinta lalalalala... kudambakan...
Yang terbaik"

Kesetiaan - Siti Sarah

P.s: For a guy Name Haziq Fauzi...Its a song dedicated to you as what had a happen just now...at 0800pm..........

2009-06-22T18:50:00.002+08:00

Buhooo!!
well got back from meeting my two beloved people..hahaha...first thing in the morning meet Saif and Z at Guardian tamp at 12nn..so headed to Ehub to booked tickets for wednesday..Transformers..haha...That is so not my show...~~Opps!!~~....but im going due to my love ones!! hahaha...♥ them what thats why...haha...its okey....At least gonna spend time.. so yeah...it seems like im the only girl that is going..and all of dem are guys!! WTH...haha...my bella swithart is not coming...alah...because i know that if Awis not going,she's not going too....same goes to me...If im not going,Z is not going too...LOL...*winks*...well alot of couple is going around now i guess....haha...Yat and kak farah,Awis and bella,idah and z,Wan P&C and Mastura,Wan P and "her", and lots more to come!! buhoooo!!
i hope that everything would be smooth enough..LOL.....

Nothing to post actually coz im bored...coz i cant follow them to meet bella and awis...damn!! haha...its okey...well...gtg...MUACKX!!!

2009-06-21T12:31:00.002+08:00

I dunt get you and i dunt understand you..you wanna me to change but indeed now we are on a hard rock...we cant go far if we go on like this...you know it as well as we talked just now by thinking that we would just pretend nothing is going round...you wanna me to change...here i am trying my best...for the 1st time i change for a guy...And as far as you know...I hate people changing me...but indeed with you...it is given a chance...well im trying and you know it and i bet you can see it as well..only for attitude wise it takes time....As for instance me and bella...both of us are the same..you and Awis have to be patient with us...it takes time for us to change...we cant change it within 24hours....please understand us...we behave that way not because we dunt care and did not love you guys....if we were not listening to both of you....,Bella would bot be wearing skirt..While im not gonna be wearing a dress?? Did both of us wear jean??? No right?? what does that mean to you guys?? are we not changing?? we are..only it takes time..we can be abit sensitive...and we cold also be emotional...we do tend to behave in away that u guys hate it..yes!We admit that...But on top of that...we LOVE you!!....Its the heart that matters..and how PATIENCE we gonna have in life....Stop thinking NEGATIVELY...PLEASE!....

p.s:i love you..n it means that we really do....

2009-06-20T22:14:00.003+08:00

I realised that now that i really3 need you in my life..and ive realised that i love you soo much right now..yesterday incident is was very most memorable and frightening moment for me...

i realised that you are the one for me that could took care of me..i really assured my feelings for you...i guess you know my answer..i cant really deny that i love you as much as you love me..

everything is proved by you my dear....pleasing ur mom is not an easy task...its hard...but its not over yet she still did not knoe the truth yet...you make cry ....i feel my soul is been taken away after seeing the incdent that happen infront of my eyes!!...i cant deny that i priotise you 1st as u cant take it seeing u like this..thank god....you are fine...listening to ur voice at 1 am in the morning is the medicine for me last night..but still it didnt let me sleep in peace...

A gift of the teddy bear is unexpected and that shows u willing to go for another mile for me..but those are the words that faiq told me..but i guess i give a chance that i hope would be the last chance i gave for a guy nd to trust guy's werds....for the 1st time i tell you..I TRUST YOUR WORDS....

p.s:if you wanna hurt me,hurt me...not later....

2009-06-18T13:50:00.002+08:00

buHoo people!!

well realy3 sorry for late updates!!

well somebody wants me to update so yeah..i will right nw...

ive been away for 3 days coz not having camp but having fun outside wit my friends..

well i ton 2 nights..

so yeah...

so on monday morning i meet my fav boy at school before he went to camp..and he lend his deck to me..so that i could ride the deck...yeaha!!!...

so we talked for awhile and im off..coz im not part of it...

so yeah..

after that headed to woodlands to meet my coach..chey! haha..he's just a Inline Skate Coach....he told me that he wanna show me his skate shop..

well i guess i just took the long way and i took the mrt to go to woodlands....

so yeah..i reached woodlands at 930 am...so he picked me up and we went to Causeway point to have our breakfast....

so he treat me breakfast..so after that i skate but he scolded me..oh well big brother mah! he scared that i will fall again so yeah...

i didnt....listen to him...if not he gonna be nagging at me all the way....hahah...

so yeah..

well we reached early..BUT!!! he forget the bring his key!! damn! so have to wait for Daren to come...but still he oso late..waited till 1130 and end up...we lepak at the shop for hours..and i was so in love with the MUSKA deck..its pink and black...oh gawd..hehe..stop it eh....!! haha..

and coincidencely i saw my another skater boy hadi...haha...he came by with his cuzen...both were shocked to see each other...and he thought that Farahan was my bf..i was like laughing like hel...haha...well indeed no...i told my big brother...but ended up he Farhan giving me the look of "whatever"...Dasar mat rep!!! haha...lol...

so it was like 2plus..and i was soo bored in the shop..i ask him if wanna watch movie...so he say ok...haha...well we headed to causeway point to watch Blood of the Vampire..it was thrilling movie...gah!! no monder m18...hahah...

well the funny thing is that the girl thinks that he's 17..while she ask me..."Ermm..is ur bf 17? he cant go in..." well farhan said.."do i look like im too young??"...she say.."Ermm young!! Can i see ur ID please? Coz ur Gf is 18.If not you cant enter" *ID shown* she say"OMG!! you are 20?? ok...you look so young and cute...!!" *Flirtish*...Farhan..."Ermm thanx...!*hugging me*"...i say" Err...B...Lets go...!! "...well it was a shot acting as i noe that farhan was feeling uneasy as the girl is trying to flirt with him..well using me as his Gf...I understand the situation..Coz we both have the same in common whic love to make people look stupid..haha...thats the worse part..
well headed to the cinema while all the girls eyes are on him..Eventhough he look so Slack but he still do look cute...haish....
so yeah...
haha...Not jealous...haha..for what?? lol....
so in the cinema we get the couple seat...as both of us are sleepyheads,..We sleep for awhile while enjoying the aircorn...Perangai!!!
so the show started and we watch...intresting story..
so finished at 4 plus..so headed back to tamp while he headed back home coz he have to go to work..while for me headed back to meet ayu at faz house...
reach my house to get myself freshen up and changed..so skate to faz house...had dinner there..and me and ayu went to pasir ris to ton with her friends..
reached there 8 plus..i was introduced to her frens...
they are fun and outgoing...
So we dance we sing..
it was fun..well text ace to come down..so he did arond 10 plus...
so he have the deck and he is the one hu skate it all the way haha..
well we lepak till dawn.but i just could not take it as i slept at 5am..and i was too tired..ayu wake me up at 6am...so we packed our stuffs and we went off...
so reached punggol...and i had my shower..
but bth of us are too tired that both of us slept until 10 am...haha...
but still we are too sleepy...so i have no choice but to drag my butt off to the CGH to accompany ayu for her check up..
check up done..and we headed to eastpoint to have our lunch...So its at 2pm and we slack around..while ayu gonna meet her cuz and me going back to Woodlands to meet farhan again...while he accompaning me before i meet the guys at sembawang...at 5pm...
so meet farhan at woodlands..slacking around at the library...
so it was 5 plus..and Ras called and he say he reached Khatib Mrt..so headed to khatib...And reaching there we saw.Rudy,Ghazali and the others 4th batch..
so we went together..reach campfire site to meet my fav boy!! Saw him...! lol..Unexpectedly i get 3 hugs from my 3 lovely ladies...Bella,Joyce and Hani...sort of weird..haha..!! but it was soo touched...Aww...and get kiss from bella n joyce too...!! hehe..so sweet!! hehe...
well watch their campfire...not bad..intresting and full of laughter..lol...haha...well my lovely bella u dance that well huh..Maut ah gerl...!! well but the best is of coz my fav boy's performance. with awis..u guys rock!!! lol...
well after campfire...we board the bus..and i was have doze in the mrt..haha...
reached tamp and i went ton with my east frens,,,and i was late the next morning for skewl..!! haha..but i managed..lol...
reached skewl and i was like a half dead fish...haha....
so get the masked fitting on...
and they went to the Maggot's Lab but i did not..waiting for the campers to arrive..so yeah..they arrive at 1oplus..meet them! i miss them!! lolx...hahah..
o they had their so called breakfast+lunch at Cafe 1...haha..so we slacked at SAC..to watch a movie.."Me Hoo Nah"Something like dat ah...haha...so waited til 2plus..and off to meet faiq,ayu,and Syazwin at Ehub!!..
i was still tired gah!!
so after everything was settled,me and my fav boy went out to eat at Macdonalds...so had my lunch i guess...
and we walk around at White sands and i Tamp 1..
went home around 7 plus...
and still can Vid call summore..cool or wat..haha...!!
haha..den i had my sleep...

and today!! i was at home for the rest half of the day!! im toooo tired..and i have less sleep...so i need more...hhahah..

P.s:I noe its draggy with alot of words..haha...im too tired to upload the pix..hahah...!!

2009-06-14T14:41:00.005+08:00

Buhooo!! Today i was so *moodless*..(does that make sense?)...

K nvm..I feel so moody today once i woke up today..and one thing i realised that my left eye is swollen..!! WTF!!!..

Damn!!! Quite frustrated today ah..grrr!! So moody!!!

Well wanna say sorry to Farhan!!! Sorry!! i never reply you last night as i was asleep..as i was soo tired...My eyes cant take it readi so i just dozed of to bed..Well thank you for sending me home..from Somerset to Tampines..Well about Farhan..or can be called An...

Its been 4 years that we did not meet each other!!! wow! that was long freaking long..lst seen i was just a typical secondary school kid...Well bth of us have grown up..And we do alot of catch ups toooo!!Well he is in NS and now in just a Student Nurse in ITE...haha..Things have changed and him getting taller and much more Handsome and Cute! *winkx*Opps!! shouldnt say that coz somebody would be jealous..Hahhha!!!

Well yesterday was a bit fun day i guess!!

Well 1stly my fav came by my place at 8 am in the morning..So as usual we would sleep!! and we vid call with Rashid..its really fun! and i did not realise the time goes by as i was suppose to meet my ex boyfie Faiq to take my friend's file by accident..so yeah!! haha reach pasir ris and took the file and im off to my mum's workplace..so he would walk to my blok to wait for me...So as promised i came by at 3pm to meet him and im off to clementi to meet Awis and the rest..

So reached clementi abit late around 4plus...So as i promised my guys that im mitting them at 5pm at Jurong East..So spend time with Awis,Amin,Ghazali and Azhar..They are going for Night Cycling...So they headed of to the mousqe and i headed to Jurong East..Meet Haikal,Nazreen,Arman,AniQ and Radhiyah...as usual janji melayu everyone are late!! GRR!!so we headed off to Orchard Road and we went eating at Taka..At Sanur Restaurant!! We had a bit of miscommunication due to late comings...So me as the good girl..I have to reserved the seats at 7.30 pm..for 10 people...before that we went around walking around the shops..and as i was looking at the carebears,aniq came up and say"You want? i will buy for you if you want?"

"Its okey..Im just looking only"*smiles*...

well the next minut i realised,i received a white paper bag from aniq.."Here,this for you..Ibought it for you..I know you would like it"...i was *speechless*"Err..Thankx Aniq you shouldnt have too..."So the others would be like thinking"What the heck is going on with this to people..?"

So its 730 pm and the manager called me up..and we went up to have a seat..

So,as promised..Arman treat me...But it ended up the guys treat the gals..well they spend $200 on our dinner...haha..Huge amount of money guys!!

Farhan called me up and says that he reached ready...so introduced them with my friends and me and him headed to Somerset..Coz he have some work to do while for me watching the other guys skateboarding..they are having skate competition..and how i wish both of them are there...Haziq and Ace....

haish....oh well sot around there and i have to go off as its nearly 10 pm..so board the train to tamp as he send me home..well he was hungry and we hqad our supper at Macdonalds near my house..so reached home t 1130pm..lucky nvr get scolding lol...

haha...called him up and says that im safe...

p.s:i cant deny that i miss you tooo!!

2009-06-12T20:18:00.003+08:00

Buhooo!
helooo people....!!
Well today is the day that i spend tyme like the whole day with him..haha...Sounded so wrong huh?
haha...well spending time with him before he going for camp on Mon..while im going to ton out with my another bro Ace...
So 2nd night is the day that we going to come over to sembawang to meet them during the campfire..well mon the whole day i'll be skating!! yes ah!! i loike man!! buhoooo!!!
it gonna be great that night..
i can see my bella swithart..and i can see Haziq Fauzi my fav boy...hehehe..a very short post today so yeah!

2009-06-11T22:32:00.004+08:00

Boooo!!

Well today is not really quit fun day for me..its mostly more to my emotions..feeling ENVY AND JEALOUSY!!...Gah!!....

Well went "Doube Date " with my Ex boyfie Faiq Md Amsyar and Hys Gf Hamizah...So yeah..of coz hu is my date? Haziq of coz....haha...

Well im like sooo JEALOUS!! its not becouse i saw my Ex with another girl...

its because,he sign up a new line!! Damn! and its like the phone that i was like so wanted!! Damn..than faiq!! Grrr! Jealous sak aku!!

Gah...!! Nvm....

Well we were at Vivocity to actually watch movie bt me n haziq back up coz we wanna save money for some other stuffs..

well after being jealous by hym..somebody is jealous of me oso..well Mizah is jealous coz she wanted the Vaio laptop from Faiq..But indeed,i will get the Vaio laptop from someone!!..chey! it gonna take at least a yr to get 1..haha....

Well getting my RED DECK soon...! wehee...! thank you haziq...! it really cost much...chey..! it seems like Somebody have the same hp seh..kirekan sweet ah tu..haha...

but well me and hym oso same hp ah...BLUEK!! haha..tgu kita dua UPGRADE HANDPHONE EHK....! haha...Insyaallah soon enuf!! Buhoooo!!

p.s: It takes time dear..We need patience..i told you ready just now..you know what situation im having right now...so i hope you understands which i know u will do..Coz you are understanding and a patience guy..A good boy indeed....hehe..Well if u really need me in ur life..please wait...If you found one down the road..just go ahead...Im letting you go if you found the one that you wanted..i just want to let my situation settle down..let me be on my two feet again...And lastly....dunt too overspent your money..A deck which nearly cost a hundred is really a huge amount of gift that i would get from a guy like you....

2009-06-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

Buhooo!

hey people..Well today is like im feeling so shagged and tired as my whole body i weak and i loose my voice damn! well,woke up early in the morning at 5am...As have to wake him up just to remind him the guitar...so yeah..Im still half dead..and looking like zombie!!...

I was sleepy but have to get my butt to school for NIE...So yeah..reach east point at 645..to meet hym..palnning to top up my pp8 bt didnt make it si have to fast walk to skewl as we gonna be late for NIE...so reached school on the dot at 7am...so get my hair done and buzz off to do my duty..station outside auditorium at the entrance with my Bella swithart...its like heaven that both of us doing duty together wuhoo!!Love her alot lah sey!..

Well we were suppose to swap duty so me and bella were put in the Auditorium! Atlast! Aircorn!! atlast! so yeah..Take random pix with bella..coz i noe i love her hehe!!

idah,bella and kak farah..My love ones!

Idah Swithart and Bella Swithart

I just ♥ her alot!

After the event,we went to KARAOKE! wuhooo!! ok...i lost my voice..it was like hell..and im freaking sick now...grr....So yeah..short and simple...

It takes time for you and me,...

Idah feat Haziq Fauzi

p.s:You show me your care..you show me your love...Thank you for everything...

2009-06-09T17:43:00.005+08:00

Buhoooo!
Today is short and sweet..Nothing much happening today...80% of it is at home...haha..well somebody work me up at 8 am..by tellimg me dat he's reaching tamp ready to meet me...So yeah..woke up early and still have the time to MSN with kak farah...
So after we meet each other..Spend a little tyme together...and im going to meet my mummy at werk place at 1pm...we took some shots and gah!! im off to meet my mummy...!! And he headed to school for meeting as i was not involved...so yeah...
Headed to KFC to eat with my mum..I guess..Im soo fulled....thats my day..
And end up at home..helping my mum to cook for like the 1st TIME!!..haha...perangai buruk siak....
so yeah..chey..slowly changing seh!! haha...so okey...

Well Video calling with my adq ayu..currently nothing much..both of us are so shagged n tired..having no mood..what we has was onli on our beds...soo damn tired...!!
if not we would be like so hype up..but its okey..we mitting up dis thurs...i guess 1 whole day i guess...buhooo!! haha...but still i guess to send her to work..

"Seasons are changing and waves are crashing

and stars all falling for all for us

days grows longer and the nights grow shorter

i can show you i'll be the one..."

2009-06-08T22:36:00.005+08:00

Boooo!!

well people 1st of all..i wanna thank this particular person for buying me the camera bag that i really wanted..didnt expect it to happen..Its was really shocking and me feeling soo touched by you...really appriciate it...THANKX!

Well went to Peninsula today just to accompany hym buy hys new pants...So yeah..and at last he bought me a Camera bag..Which is pink skull...Thanx alot....The bag that i wanted last time...really shocking when you really2 bought it for me..And the handphone lanyard..that was soo cute!! thank you very2 much...

The sweetest thing ever...Thank you....

So headed to school...And there it goes.....

p.s: I will try my best...

2009-06-07T15:12:00.005+08:00

Buhooo people!!

well today i will be happily staying at home doing some housework..Well did not went out today as it Sunday...And somehow his bz working..Well sorry mizah cant make it today..He's working..And i did not want to disturb him that much! Just hope u enjoy with him aite..? Next time maybe...Well Changing my skin blog today and making it more intresting i guesS?? haha...Lol...haha..

So,what im doing right now is just to make my parent happy so that i can go out...hehe..so yeah...My dad have give me the green light stating that i can go out with all my friends unless i know to take care of myself..by not repeating my past again..By creating trouble n running away from home..I guess not..i wound't i think..And should be..I should be moving on..I should..I cant be forever like this 'hiding'...
well..making my parent proud and happy is a must..well so yeah...i can get the leisure..But i still have a curfew by 10...Unlike some people...who have no curfew!! haha...*perangai ace sia*....
haha....well...being acting strange and weird i guess...thanx to this two 'Rascals' that make me like this..hahah...well Im changing..!! well somebody is changing me...!!*winkx*..you noe hu are..
well im trying aite...BUT....
u wanna be to me a lady but u expect me to skate?....Well thats possible i guess.....! haha...doesnt mean being a lady cant skate right??.... So yeah...
But my fashion of dressing is also changing!! its not from being a TOMBOY...no....!!
its the same lady..but its more feminism...chey....*perangai rabak sia*..
ok crap...

Looking forward to the day for mitting each other....well..I promise you that i wud not take it out..as u wanna me to hold it...BUT during attachment i have to..BUT its gonna be on my neck as wat u told me to make it a necklace....It takes time....

I miss my Rascals...they are the ones who always make my day...make me smile and making me push away all my problems....!!!

A short video of their skateboarding.....

2009-06-06T09:04:00.000+08:00

Boooo!

i love 5th June outing the best man!!! Well had an outing with my lil siz,ayu,and guess what it turn out to be a blast..! before that i wanna tell u guys that this post would be a long one,as it was long and fun day!!!...

Well 1stly.as usual my lil siz ayu would be arriving at my house...She had her ice cream for breakfast and meet my another lil bro haziq...so both of us will be heading to tamp inter to mit my brother falah 1st as he did not go for friday prayer as he mitting me and ayu..spend time for a lil short while,and he went off....

Well meet fareez and rashid at small mac at 2pm...while waiting for galvin and saiful to arrive....abit of miscommunication happen down there that had a lil cock up...but it resume well after galvin make me laugh...lol...*kiez no link*...

So hopped on to the mrt and off we go to bugis...but in the train i was pissed off by certain issue...so yeah...but it was settled oredi...So....as usual spending time at bugis for nothing as we did not have soo much cash with us,...lol...

haha...sedih per!!buhoo!!..so we took alot of pictures...And more nothing else bt pictures...While waiting for alep to arrive...

After he had arrive we had our lunch at bugis..So after tat we headed to Raffles Hospital Coffee bean not for buying drinks...but to meet Syuk...!! well he look soo shagged and tired..haiz....sooo we planned to go to Esplanade!! so headed there..and we didnt expect it to have a show at the concourse...so they do spend there 3o mins and watch the show...and headed off at 8pm to CGH..to pick up alep's sister.Hazel...Reached CGH at 9pm sharp bt it seems she's not there so still have to wait for her...When she arrives...we headed back to tamp..while the two guys...i dunt noe where they ton...haha.....So yeah..that was our day..All of us are tired...And we are having Fun!!!

2009-06-04T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hello people....

well today just staying at home...But 1st...i went out with my mummy!!

yeah!

so my mummy treat me alot of stuffs today..well i get a new set of make-up..My mummy treat me..and that's not it..she treat me a palm shoe...wich cost $22.90...so yeah...its black and white...I love it..thanks mummy!!! i love you sooo muchy!! muackz!! haha...

okey...and the next that..someone's blog is private!!!!....haha..well its okey...dint mind at all...so its ok....

so watching DVDs with mummy was fun! so yeah...haha...its been long time didnt spend with my mom...so today i had mine...so its 4.30 pm i hooked my lappy....

so updating my blog and taking random pictures..and edit them...while chatting on9 with the SC people...so yeah,...Thanx Galvin and Haziq u nearly turn me deaf sia!!..U guys shouted as though i cant hear..aiyooo..

Tommorow u guys will get if from me ah....i dunt care...! haha...

So had a great half a day at home i guess....well i miss my Sc mates....*cries*...its okey..Meeting u guys tmr!!...Well my "proposal" for tmr is done...Hope it gonna gone well tmr...Please....

And before that...i have nurse my two beloved patients who will never stop injuring themselves...Hu is Haziq and Alep...Guys...Better turn up in the morning in the east...I gonna clean ur wounds asap....Aite?

haish...i told u not to skate...Degil!! very stubborn....Me and Hazel really2 have to take care of u guys....Aduhai...Lucky u guys have nurses...chey!! abeh bangga..Stop it eh idah...hahahxz...

im just being happy...well...! At 6.05pm...sumone msg me and says he injured hys right finger!!! grr!!....

isk...everytime when im not around nape injure urself...? when im around...u didnt injure urself?....hmm....

lucky minor...if major accident i should be rushing down to skewl redi...

Make sure plan jadi..if not i gonna kill u rashid!! and ayu gonna kill me!!!!hahakx....

Chatting and on9 with them...

A random pic of me while trying to catch my mood

Im just in love with you....

p.s:

sorry if i have to do this...Please dunt force me to love you....Im not healed yet...i noe u could take care of me...But please...Im still hurt due to my past r'ship...i dunt need a repeat scene....I dunt fake love...I fall in love naturally...but now...my heart is not stolen from anybody...My heart is not for anybody at the moment..let me move on with my life...im not ready to fall in love again..its hurting...i dunt wana be hurt or hurt people's heart again..but im sorry that i have to hurt you...Let me go....Please....Dunt wait for me...Stop begging me...coz i cant....im sorry....

2009-06-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

buhooo....

Well today it was a bit fun...okey2 ah..nt bad...well met my lil brother Haziq..haha...

so we headed down to skewl at around 2plus to 3 around there...so slacking at skewl..well i picked up a new interest bt it seems to be outdated...Well for the 1st time ever..I wanna learn Skate boarding..haha..to me...Skateboarding sux last time,but it turn out to be fun when i 1st step on the board...Thanx bro..U picking me up my interest....haha.buhoooo....!!

well....Reach skewl and saw my fav gal..NURUZ!!!..the gal that i owaez missed!!! Hahahha...well...talk to her abt sumthing very touchy...Well gerl..be strong taw....anything im here...haha....we are the same ah bebe!! well u noe i noe...hahha...

okey den..We went to cafe 2 to have our lunch!..and i had Chicken Chop!! haaha...Well...at least im full...*winkx*..haha....

Well i wanna say that i wanna go SKATE!! well mizah,i noe its like "so yesterday"but still i wanna skate!! but 1st muz have my own deck..!! damn!! no money ah!! hahaah...WTH...

so yeah...

haha...I just had my 1st fall..damn!!...injured by left foot..Nvm..its a small one...but butt hurts..damn!!....

well after that try to skate lah konon...but i look soo funny!! with a dress and a skate shoe...?

haha..Skater gal tak menjadi...haha...shud be wearing pants!! haha..

will update more!!

A pic b4 dey accident!

2009-06-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

"And it cut me like a knife when you walk off my life ..now am in this condition,and i got all the symptoms of a gal with a broken heart...but no matter what you will never see me cry...."

I just dunt why and i just know why..i just dunt noe why i feel mad...i feel jealous..and i dunt understands it oso...Im not suppose to love you..but why am i feeling dis way?? im pulling my self...please....

2009-05-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

31.05.09

IDAHSYAR IS DEAD.....

The things are being kept preciously.......

The pictures that are taken.....Are being kept nicely....

Everything is over...Both of the so called sweet couple have broke off....15 days ago...

We moved on....Thank goodness....Everything is fine...Healing period now......Having peace in the mind.....

2009-05-31T14:17:00.000+08:00

Booo!!

Omg!! i guessed if i wud to stay for 1 week at home..i would be FAT!!!

Because!!!

I CRAVING FOR CHOCALATES!!...

My gawdness...

Ive been eating chocalates this whole day..Chocalate ice creams...Bars...!! OMG! i gonna get fat again!!

NOOOO!!

i still want my body...

isk!

but i just could not make it...

Well have to control my urge with CHOCALATES!!....

Believe it or not,I ate 1 whole tub of Chocolate Chip Ice cream!

2009-05-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

Booo!!

Well today was a good day i guess?? hmm..welldoing housework before i went out! seh rajin lah sey!! haha...

so yeah..cud not make it to the SC soccer...Coz i woke up around 10 am...so its late...So i guess...i went out to go to study with one of my ex boyfie!! haha...s!st thing accommpany him to Renew his singpass...He lost his singpass...for NS..Baru nk jejak per boy!! haha...*winkz*

So reach Tampines 1..walking around...Window shopping for new gadgets! haha...Aiming for that PSP huh??..Tunggu kejer yer..pelan2 kayuh ehk...ahaha...his aiming for new hp...well be it...haha...so we reached starbuks and we have our spot and settle down/...there we go stresses with our own subjects!! haha..both are stressed..! mcm nk perah otak dua2!!...

Revising my notes was like hell!!

Bz studying until he did not realise i took dis

*Candid!*I was bz studying Diarrhoea!!
I am Studios i know*winkx*

So had my Caremal Ice Blended..and i have brain freeze!

This drink make me Brainfreeze!!!!

Well being studios man! Ive been concentrating in studies sooo much!! haha...yeah...! have to pass man!!...

so great and yet soo fun!!

Finish studying 4 chapters and we buzz off to window shopping again...! and ended untill 5..Meet my mom at her workplace and off he go home....

"Err..Sir how much is dis Nokia?"

Last shot and we are off...!!!

So i had dinner at west coast..

P.S; i just hope you noe that,,,i have moved on...i want you to move on too....Its the past my dear....We promised readi that we are onie frens right? not more than that? ...Dunt wait for me...move on....I pray hard for ur operation...Hope that u are okey...its a major OP...So i will pray hard for you....No matter what it happens...dunt give up....Ingat tuhan...And please,dunt stress soo much...btw,i dunt want to hurt u anymore..do find another gal....Moved on....

2009-05-30T09:43:00.000+08:00

"I miss you my boy...But it would not for long....Im trying to be happy in my life...but it been pulling away my happiness....you make me fall back to my darkness...while me trying to move on...great life ahead...im wanting to see..so please stop pulling my back..allow me to see my happiness..for godness sake..please....."

We did need a lil catch up boy..hopping if i could meet you today....im so touched that you still told me that you still do think abt me when you walk past my house...and you do still pin up my pictures on your wall...that was really shocking as you really2 push me away after i was with him....You move on feeling hatred and being cheated by me...as what u told me..its all the past....We move on..that good to hear from you...no more hatred just friends...i never hate you...so yeah...i forgive you long time ago...no worries boy....

2009-05-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

Taufeew feat Idah...(we are messy! i know)

Booo!

Well today i was so damn tired..Headed to CCK at 11am to meet my bro,taufeeq..well he make a burger for me...awww...so sweet! it was so damn nice!!thanx qiu!...I guess i nid a pizza from u...haha..coz u are the best maker per...LOL..

okey..after stressing abt studies,we went to lepak with hys other brothers at the carwash area..well meet new frens...so yeah...they gd people...sarcastic and love to tease people...and especially me n him...well me and hym were just frens...coz we are close thats all..not more than that people...

i nearly get soaked wet...

bt indeed did not soo lucky ah...

and we headed to CCK interchange coz i have to go off well he have to go Bukit Batok to Enrol hys car license...hmm so yeah..For me..its long way to go ah bro..unless u sponsor me ah*winkx*..

nolah..JK onie...

so off i go to ITE SIMEI..reach CEMTA bt no one there i guess they went to ESP...so yeah..

so headed off to SC room..and meet Galvin and Saiful..And hangout with my members and we went off to tamp inter to lepak..well Saif accompany me home...thanx bro...Going NS soon huh,,hahah...gdluck!!

well reached home late...reach home at 0830..and i was so shagged...manage to blog...

p.s: I moving on really fast..im leaving my love life...im enjoying what have for me...i just wanna live hapilly..if it really getting ur way,im sorry..im just being hu i am..if u think im FLIRTING..i dunt noe what else to say..it ur judgement abt me..coz i what im doing is that im just going with the flow..not intrested with anyone now...im just following wat my life wud be..doesnt mean going out wit guys means im flirting...they are my frens that i wanna cherish..i dunt wanna loose my frens AGAIN...they really precious..they understands how i feel..they are the one hu pulled me up when im really2 down....you just scaring my life away u noe that??....i will just see what coming my way...i leave it to HIM...

2009-05-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

boo people!!
haha..well today was officially last day for all of us!! wuhoo!!
"Well,April intake 2009,i declare tommorrow is OFF day for u people!!"
And hellyeah!! we were so damn freaking happy!!..
yes ah!!! we are like so happy..wuhooo!!
so yeah!! haha..
well tommorow is a day off...
but...
Im going out...LIKE DUH!!
well going out to the west area WTF...
haish...
Thank ehk taufeeq...Bloody hell you..Chey nolah..JK onie..Nanti majok susah! haha...
ok den crap!!

Going to study like hell tommorow...studying with my brothers tommorow...
so yeah..
And they bring their gf along which consist of all nursing students..hahah...
well have to study hard...*winkx* exams are nt wk!! OMG!!...
Im gonna kill myself man!!

And after the days wud be my enjoy day...! Night life and adventurous night with my besties!! yeah!!
well they planning to overnight soon!! weehee!!hell yeah!!

Well today in skewl was fun!! Thank eh danial..kau rembat aku peh peha...peh saket!! and at last i have to walk tempang home...WTH...i And i pity taufeeq and Nazreen....sorry for so much trouble..well yeah..my leg injured and i have to make a presentation just now..well than god..everything gone smoothly...Alhamdullillah...bt still hurt..well im been receiving calls from taufeeq and BOBO...haha..sori bro,im late..Due to photography and my leg..im really sorry....u guys waited for me for half an hour...so sorry.....really2....well walked off to simei..planning to go to lavender...bt due to time constrict i step back...well walked off home..and damn..my leg still pain!!

2009-05-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

Booo!! hey people...Well i know life can be great and life can be very hurting..Well im abit hurt..But its not that badly hurt...

I was aware about it..No more high hopes!! hahaha....

Enuf of it...

Gonna say goodbye to hym...I miss hym...But he was a gd guy..I know i cant deserve him....

Its onie the beginning...Im not hopping for anything....I do miss you....

Well everything gone smoothly these few days...I just go on with life now..As usual...Life goes on...

I just did nt put any hope to any guys that i known now...No more high hopes...yep2...Even taufeeq..TTM eh...Bleh g2..."Teman Tapi Mesra" lol...Ya it was damn great acting in skewl man!! no body suspected anything that we are called as frens...haha..Coz it wud be random if we were to talk at skewl...haha...Coz we did not talk before during Skewl!! Thanx to wawan ah dat we noe each other....lol...

but today was the day that we are close...for the 1st time ever we lepak together..if not he always go home..isk!!So spend time till around 7plus..and today was the earliest we finish..at 430..yea! spend time together talking crap n nonsense ah..didnt expect to be dis way..we did not talk to each other for a long time...so yeah...

onie today he treat me good coz hys gay partner BOBO did not come..thats y he layan me!!Thank ehk!!...

You better turn up on the night man!! We gonna go adventure man!! .....u better bring ur ass down to tampines..before i go to CCK...haha...well im the onlie one in the east..As the Gentlemans,please aite pick me up...

For u taufeeq..Its a promise that u made to me just now...U get ur license readi..u say im the 1st one...lol...haha..yea right!! bestie 1st huh...haha..unless you dunt have a GF!! if u do..i told u earlier redi haha...Just frens onie...hahaha....well tired now....

2009-05-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

Boo! People!!
well today my right eye was infected like damn ass..grr..so have to go home...Bt indeed i went to woodlands and told my B earlier..bt indeed u get the msg late...And i guess you are pissed off as i just give a drop off just like dat...hmm..sooo sorry..didnt mean harm..
and he needs time and he not in a good mood..so im really2 sorry B!!...Now its my turn to be guilty..waiting for you to online...I miss you....
I miss the crap that we have and the fon calls that we have made tru 2 nights..Ive fall in love with you...But i dunt put hope..Coz i noe i dunt deserve you..You are very damn great2 guy!!
i really respect that..

Seriously you stole my B...You called as ur Baby girl..And you will be My Mr Cute/My baby boy...
I noe you are hurt by the previous r'ships....
Me too..And for me its just pass by me...Its been hurting too...trust me dear...
Im really sorry..Do call me at webby....Or even a call away..Coz i noe you are fine when the clock strikes 12..That wud be Zick the guy that ive known since last year....
We talk indirectly...But indeed you really took care of my feelings...
Its onie the beginning of us knowing each other...You still have alot more to noe abt me...

p.s:B..Im worried abt you..Please stop drinking my dear...Im reducing my cig..And please stop drinking....

2009-05-24T14:32:00.000+08:00

Heyloo people! yesterday was tiring man! oh gosh!!

Well early in the morning have to go to skewl the walkathon..We think it gonna be damn boooring but indeed it was abit of FUN!

haha..helly yeah!!..well 1st thing 1st i did was i went to Sc room...to meet my scandle..OoopS! haha...Neh its Galvin..my 1st scandle ahah..isk3...

well then after took my attendence and off we go to the field..Well had our Warm-up..and the warm up are soo damn freaking Sexy!! coz the instructor was freaking damn hot!! hu is my PE teacher...haha...Well naz...control..jgn high! i noe you cant take it..lol..haha..

Well had spme snapshots!! we are camwhores!!!

LOL...

And after that we can go off and i went to Auni house to change..and as usual,she will be doing my make-ups...I had thick eyeliner OMG...haha...

well bt nice...so meet up with my Ex boyfie ..And i took my sis hp and i walked off..

So after that headed to Tamp inter and meet my sis!! i miss her damn loads sia!1 and as usual,hugs and kisses hahaha..

and we headed to Montip and i bought a black ring coz i need a ring!! grr! ahah...well after that we planned to buy a ring which have our names on it as it for sista love...Awww soo sweet..lol..

And after that we headed to Bugis to send my sister to work, and i headed to pasir ris...Well planned to meet Aryl but he Paitaw last min..Haish..So i just say okey lah..Planning to go out with other members bt they are bz with their stuffs..Like mataer,work,and other stuffs...Left me alone...Sedih per..haha..den my las life line is Haikal...ooops!! and well hangout with hym...just for awhile..And in the end my bro,Sharezal call up and we meet up at afghan...

so he came y and we hang out and we walk off...

p.s;B..its hard my dear...its not abt hurting...you are scared u gonna be hurt..me too.its not onlie you..wat u say last night is true... u dunt want to be in r'ship..Coz u are scared...For you..im always dey for you..we spend alot of hours on the phone...We noe better...

day by days...last night u prove that u hated to hurt gals..And u hated to be hurt..coz it takes time for you to heal...its the same baby...

we are the same...Hope for the best..you do make me smile and laugh everytime with ya!...

waitig for the day that you can be free for us to meet up..Sorry baby,i just cant go out today dear..Coz i cant go out in sundays...Its a day at home for me dear....I noe u wanna comfort me..But 4get bout last night...Its not a big deal anyway..Stop being guilty too..its my fault oso...Stop it and we get things better soon enuf..dunt feel guilty and stop saying sorry to me...u didnt hurt me dear...

2009-05-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

hello people!
well i guess the plan for 2mrw will gonna be changing i guess..the fort canning have cancelled..i guess i gonna mit my frens and my ex boyfie faiq i guess 4 hp i guess..hahah..and mitin my adq..abt aryl..no really so sure...waiting for the response..well i guess for haziq he's bz..
no time..so yeah cancel 4 mitting hym..
other time i guess..its okey..yeah..

"Im confused..No where to choose and no where to go..Ive made up my mind...am i being unfaithful?I moved on...As what i wanna it to be....Im hurt...moving on..staying happy...you make me smile,you make me happy again...with u, it makes me alive again...wud it hurt again? i guess it will...the hurts will nvr stop..it will still killing me...."

2009-05-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

"She moved on..She smile..she's happy..She love herself..she adore herself..she love being idah.."

hello people!!

well guys! im so damn hyper now in skewl haah!!

i just dunt noe why...soo hype up in skewl..lol...

i just love myself now..heheh...

so yeah...this sat i guess will be chaotic....

alot of plan done...Going to fort caning with my frens for the smoking cessation...Even im not a smoker...*winkz*..LOLx..

Well so yeah he gave the green light asking me to join them for the fun so yeah! i guess i just come down lorhx...

haha..gonna have fun with them..and meeting haziq my mr cute guy whom he owe me!! LOL...haha and being his pikachu..sedih seh kene pikachu!!

Lol..Abg falah ku,jgn cemburu ye abg...LOL..haha...My Mr cute since last year..LOL..

haha...yea i noe dat abg jeles! haah....that haziq much more cute emo guy..hahah...he is still my MR CUTE! And im his PIKACHU!!...

Well today was great for skewl..Taufeeq i hope the notes that i wrote for you is worth it as the qn came out 4 bio just now! yes ah!! Luckily.Hoping that i gonna pass my bio test coz i study it like mad at home!!! that's y no time 4 blogging..haha...

and after that headed for CEMTA for as usual singing choir...Not much done as the gals are going nutz! haha..Well i have new partner today hu is Hyekel...Ahhaha..Faiq was absent so yeah..crazy with Hyekel..And guess wat? A new Family tree is born! haha..Thanx to Rafi that create it...Well Rafi is My bro in law..Hyekel is hys fiancee(gays)..ooops!and min!! is my MOMMY!! haha..family tree huh..Well najib is my dancer haha! we dance crap and singing crap..LOL...and headed down to SC room..And miting my those love ones! i miss them! and Nuruz!!! aku rindu kau!! haha..my partner..My Bibir Maintain!! Well beb..As u noe,alot of confessions is made just now..As we can say..."GUYS ARE STILL GUYS!! AHAHA.."and to Aryl..No offence huh...hehe...well Nuruz..Your Edward Cullen have not arrived yet...haha...And for me...I still have not find the right one i guess haha..i thought i found him,.bt i guess no...he's somwhere..But i noe he exist!! haha...

Well crap idah!!..and to hidayat...I guess you are right..i make wrong mistake...haish..its happen...and thanxie for being my bodyguard just now..haha...and well walked off to eastpoint..and guess wat? i Shop a high heel shoe..i spoted it! it nice and i crave for it and i bought it..haha..hell yeah!!Thanx nuruz aku sayang kau ah beb!!

Well kinda bored now as my bro did not call me..And Haziq is not on9..grr...

and i really miss my those time of having fun..and i now i have it back!!

I have my bodyguards back! my sisters!! My brothers! and my scandle!!LOL...

Feat Hyekel and Idah...LOL..My Lil Bro!

2009-05-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hello people!! I just love today!! haha..its monday!!

And for the 1st time,i'm super hyper in skewl today!! wuhoo!!

Its like today im being happy after the break up with faiq..even Nabila was thinking that im not ok...well actually i am...I am okey right now..haha..moving on...

well 1st thing in the morning was lecture hall..which is Dr Keith Goh the neuro Surgeon gives us talk about the brain..Well halfway the lecture i Doze off to sleep..As usual...LOL....But my beloved Bro/Scandle,wawan give me a msg that makes me wake up..Thank ek bro...You make me tachy early in the morning man!! i feel like butterflies in my stomach..OMG!!!

I just dunt noe y...

LOL...

Well idah,i guess u went nuts!! LOL...haha...Well during Geron we have supe duper Fun in class..having games!! and guess what? Nazreen is the father of fortune while for me the assistant...lol...! im always hys assistant in everything...LOL...haha..

Any one needs fortune?

Deevya(my sayang),idah,Naz(my Love),Vani(my darling)

We are the Fortune Teller Group!!!

Well after Geron we have PM...much more relaxing..talking abt ghosts! craps!! it was like a laughing like hell today man!! gosh!! haha..I feel like bursting to tears!!

well after that i skipped my bio lesson...haha...so lazy with that teacher talking..grr!!

Well decided to go to cafe 2 and eat pasta! im craving it like hell..i dunt noe why..went out to eat with my brothers and the onie siz!! haha..Well nazreen,haikal,arman and radz..They are my bro and sis!! talk crap and wait for my another bro wawan to arrive....and we walked together to simei mrt...Not onli dat...talking to him was like shivering...of coz talking to a guy who is damn hot to me was like nerve breaking for me..oh gosh!!hahaha...

Well we went seperate ways after we reach simei mrt...I took the mrt and rebound to from simei to tamo to pasir ris and back to tamp...Letting my bro falah to wait for me lol...!! padan muka!! haha..

Kesian seh

Well as for him...He misses his adeq soo much wat!! so u have to wait lorhx!!haha....few shots before we went home...

p.s:Im sorry bro...Its not the time yet..We have boundaries between you and me....I regard you as a bro onie..not more than that..Move on..Im just ur lil sista that will be there for you..And foremost..I love you as my one and onie brother!!My carebear!!!!

2009-05-17T13:53:00.001+08:00

Im back to where i am before...Back to Square 1...Being single and being sophisicated by love...

Well as every relationship matters,always being hurt and ended up with break-ups..that what happening to me now...

well what can i say..life has to go on...

Im moving on...

But just hopping that things would get better after the hurtings...

Only a few things that i should be mentioning to people out there to get cleared about these...

To my ex Abbas...

Im sorry..you know that i onli regard u as a fren not more than that..u noe it redi..as i make it clear to you ready...you want me to accept the top up card that u gonna top up for me..i do accept coz i just dunt wanna hurt you..For once...stop all those..i know that u can give me what i want..but i dunt love you...And the most hurting that i never love you before..i just cant love you...im just ur childhood lover that we use to be last time..i treasure everything that you have given me...you noe that i still loves him...you noe it...Im still ur fren..but please do get a better gal than me...you are not my type of guy abbas...its hurting but i just have to tell you..it been in me for years...I just couldnt accept you...thank for everything..please...im not ur barbie doll...Im a gal with feelings of love..please undertstand...I will be there as a fren..not as ur lover..Im sorry coz i pull my body away from u last night coz i cant..you did the same thing after i broke off with ryan..its a repeat again..dont wait for me...please....move on..its hurting i know...coz im been through it now...im being faithfull abbas....

To Fadhli

I do wanna say sorry to you too...I know that after i told you about the break up...You say that you would be there for me...yes you are...but..i just treat you as a friend not more than that...

i appriciate alot of things that you have done for me...dunt wait for me...

Im really sorry...Im being faithfull to one onlie...whom you know who i love...im sorry coz i lie to you by telling u that im okey..as im over it..bt actually i did not...

i may smile and laugh..bt deep in me,i dunt..i mintak maaf fadhli...

move on...Dont wait for me...coz i cant....im just a friend for you...I bet you gonna have a better gal than me...move on....Im just being there as a friend not more than that..sorry guys....

Well that was what i gonna tell you guys..im really sorry..im really hurt by him...But im staying strong enough to let my heart stays for him...im waiting and will keep waiting..but as the same time im moving on..just wanting to see what happening in the future....Might be good or bad...

Well i can say that life goes on....

I just wana go on smoothly...

Being happy..enough of hurting...

And lastly to wawan,

please be faithfull to your gal my dear...I cant be your scandle...Please...you know that its hard to get her,now u have her...be with her...make her happy not jealousy..I know how she feels when she finds out..it will be very hurting...

your'e my brother...i treat u as one..so be it...Take care of her...If not u gonna regret it like me!!! coz i regret now..bt i cant do anyting...you now how i acted yesterday...Being happy but hurting inside....you noe it...u can see tru ma eyes...

just be faithfull...

im being faithfull now....

waiting for him.which i noe that it wud not happen..bt i have to believe in myself...love myself..

And taking care of myself too...